falling off the cliff

It's hard to be human. Sometimes we love too deeply and think too much. We feel judged by our neighbors, friends, and a lot of times even our own family.  So we run. We run away mentally. We run away physically. Sometimes you're like me and you find yourself doing both. We feel judged for that too though. Don't we?

It's never ending.

It can break your heart. I don't think this is all so rare actually. Being human is hard. Loving people is hard.

The need to be understood and accepted runs deep in our veins. We search the earth over for that person who will never leave us. For those people who will always see the best in us even when we're at our  worst... and most of the time only to be let down.

It is this exact understanding that keeps me laying helpless at the feet of Jesus. That is why I listen to God over all the other voices.

He is all I have.

He is the only voice that is always totally honest yet NEVER makes me feel inadequate. He is never condescending or condemning. He always tells me I'm enough. He always reminds me I am His. He is always on time and His plans for me are good.

I know God has big plans for me! He does for you too. 

I know I have a story and a voice in His kingdom. 

I haven't lost sight of that.

I'm just in the furnace..

I've felt alone.

Lost my people.

Almost my marriage.

And at times for sure My mind.

I'm relating to stories and people in the Bible I never hoped to relate to. But it's my story.. my book. 

We all have one.

God is the author and the finisher of my story and yours. I'm clinging to that right now. I'm letting Him be God and do His job. My job is just to not let go of Him. To remain in the vine.

I don't have to fix anything.

I don't need a plan.

I just need to cling to Him and breathe new fresh air.

That's it.

I encourage you today to let go of your agenda. Let go of your insecurities, your fears, and your short comings.

If you don't have a hold of God grab onto Him now. If you do, cling to Him with everything you have, take a deep breath in and exhale it out. He will finish your book and IT WILL BE VICTORIOUS!

 Father today I ask that you remind us again in a fresh way of your unconditional love. Thank you Lord that when I fall of the cliff I always find myself in your loving arms. Thank you Lord that we can be still growing and be a joy to you even though we haven't "arrived".

 I pray Lord that you continue grow me beyond anything I could dream for myself. I am a broken pot. I am as human as they come yet you never leave me. You never forsake me. 

 Thank you for showing me unconditional love. I pray everyone who finds this is encouraged to rest where they are knowing you adore them. 

 I love you father. In Jesus precious name I pray.

       He makes Beauty out of ashes.

                       Isaiah 61:3

           Let us fix our eyes on Jesus.

                      Hebrews 12:2

          For it is by grace you have

been saved, through faith- and this not      

rom yourselves, it is a gift of God.

                    Ephesians